Sunday, 21 April 2019

Small spaces and autism

Hey readers,

When it comes to small spaces and my autism in some instances I like to be in small spaces. Other times small spaces make me feel really claustrophobic making me feel like I  want to run away and be free. 


Therefore in this post, I'm going to split up for reasons why I like small spaces and reasons why I don't small spaces. 

So why do I love small spaces as an autistic person? 

I think one of the reasons I like small spaces, in particular, is when I'm having a meltdown I feel like I need to curl up in a fetal position. I want to hide away in a small space where no one can get me that is dark and secure and safe.

 I identify my bedroom as my safe place and that is where I go to escape the emotional situation that can cause me to a breakdown of sorts. 

when I am in a small space I find that there are fewer stimuli for me to concentrate on. Therefore it calms me down a lot more quickly than when I am in a very stimulating environment where there is a lot going on. The type of stimuli that affects me is noise from the TV, bright lights, someone touching me. So, shutting out that noise helps calm me down and dispenses the meltdown. 

When I go into a small space it helps me to stop the overthinking and fast thoughts that occur in my mind. Small spaces give me a chance to reduce my feelings of being overwhelmed and trying to process this information when I'm deeply anxious. 

when I am in a small space it's normally deep within a quilt on a quilt on a quilt so that I am warm and secure in my small space. The small space and being closed in helps me feel safe again.  

Looking back and evaluating how I respond to small spaces I think one of the reasons that I see small spaces at times positive for me because they are comforting when I'm distress or when I'm anxious. Going to a safe and small space gives me that time to hide away. 


Reasons why I do not like small spaces? 

I guess like most things the way I think about things is black or white and this the small spaces. Sometimes I deeply enjoy them and other times I detest them, there is no in-between for me. 

I don't like small spaces when I am in a busy place or I am not coping well with my anxiety. I feel trapped and find it hard to think of solutions, therefore, have felt that this is going to be forever. 

I need to feel in control and when I am not it causes upsets and meltdowns. Another time I don't like small spaces is at bus stops waiting for the bus. 

I feel really paranoid when there are others provided the space. I have been knowing to stand in the pouring rain because I don't like the entrapment. 

Cheers for reading X

8 comments:

  1. Thanks for sharing your feelings. That is one of the reasons I like to visit your blog - you're so honest and real. Most of us hide who we are - it's scary to share. I admire you and I have to confess when I'm tired I want to be in my comfy chair with a cover over me away from the world. A little like you but we all have our own journey in life. #MMBC

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  2. Thank you and yes we are all on our own journey X

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  3. I can understand your feelings. I don't like wide open spaces if they are crowded, like at a festival, but I don't mind being out in the open air where there are few people around. I am definitely claustrophobic to some extent though. Even in my own home, I feel claustrophobic in the smallest room, an MRI scanner is my worst nightmare and I have to have sedation.

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    1. My worst fear is mri. Hubby had one once and I was waiting in the waiting room and the noise out there alone scared me eek X

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  4. I don't cope well with small spaces. I have only just managed the past few years to get inside a lift. I had a CAT scan and MRI scan and had to get my shit together so I didn't cry like a baby! x

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    1. Oh gosh that is my worst nightmare with the scans X

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  5. When my oldest son was younger he needed small spaces to help him when he was over stimulated. As he has gotten older that has changed a little but he still needs that occasionally. Thank you for helping me understand this a little bit better about my son. #ABitofEverything

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  6. Yes me and my eldest need small spaces when overestimated / meltdown X

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