Wednesday, 16 September 2020

A letter to guilt.

Hey guilt,

We don't need introductions we already know each other fairly well, as you are always there permanent 24/7 hiding in the background waiting to pounce.

I am just writing this letter to let you know that I seriously mother f****** hate you. you know this, you know when am weak and you can manipulate me. You think I will listen but I will put up a fight. 

There are days when there are constant internal squabbles between me and you. It is tiring and no one comes out.winning in this war. But I still put up a fight most days, while you hoover in the background.

I try to be a good mother,  I really do. I don't get it always right but please stop with the pestering, knocking at my door every corner of the way through motherhood. 

No one provides a manual with this parenting malarkey so how am I supposed to know. Sometimes I am so scared that I don't know what to do. 

All you can do is hope for the best. I am constantly learning through trial and error. Sometimes I win, other times I fail dramatically so.

I know you love the control over my weak mind, especially when I'm not certain but I'm sick of this battle between you and me. I have had enough of this constant battering me down with your mental torture.

You take advantage of all the information available, whether that be online, TV or whatever to make a stronger argument and bring me down. I am sick of this punishment! 

You dampen my mood and make me feel miserable. I shouldn't have to feel like this. I have a right to be happy just like anyone else.

Ok, I lose my shit from time to time and shout mum makes an appearance. I let the kids watch TV, sometimes I look at my phone a little bit too much but give me a goddamn break it is hard work.

I know people are going to criticise me for making the comment but parenting is a full-time job but no-one recognises what you do. Apart from your guilt, you are there waiting at every opportunity to put me down and make me feel like I'm the worst parent in the whole entire world.

Sometimes you mess with my brain so much that I lie awake in the early hours of the morning reflecting and where it all went wrong.

Right now I don't care anymore and no I'm not 100% perfect but I'll give it a good try. We all have to learn from my mistakes or how else do I grow as a parent.

I work my ass off, I try to do all the things that you should do as a parent I feed them a clear of them I love them but now and again I make mistakes I am only human after all.
so on a final note to your guilt, I want to say f*** you.


A tired mother dealing with this guilt trip!



  1. This is a great idea to get guilt, which all mother's feel, I suspect, off your chest #parentpower@_karendennis

  2. I listened to a great podcast on guilt, and how we often feel guilty when we are doing what's right for us - saying no, setting and enforcing boundaries etc. It's a weird emotion. We also need to get better at not letting people try to manipulate us with it - again the people that fight us setting boundaries are only those that took advantage of us having none. It's an interesting situation. Anyway, next time I felt guilty, I decided to see what was causing it. Something in me or someone else. Also work out the why. Was it justified?

  3. You are completely right! Guilt is such a B*****d!!!
    It’s a great idea to write about guilt in this way, it helps to put things into perspective. #ParentPower

  4. Too much, too little, too tough, too soft, too careful, too laissez-faire. It is soooo easy to feel guilty and always second guess yourself, especially as a parent! Thanks for linking up with #parentpower