Hey readers,
Pulling hair out is one of my issues because of my autism and depression.
I relate it to my senses because there are moments when I want to hurt myself or feel something.
I have been knowing to pull and yank my hair when I am very distressed.
I have been knowing to pull and yank my hair when I am very distressed.
When I am having a meltdown or am extremely angry, I have torn out large clumps of hair because I do not always have the communication skills to express myself.
I sometimes think that because I am a bad parent, I should punish myself.
I sometimes think that because I am a bad parent, I should punish myself.
Because I am disabled and can not always give my kids the opportunities other parents can, I despise myself and worry that I am ruining my kids for life.
I am aware that this is not the "normal" method of self-harm that has gained popularity over time.
Because of my low self-esteem and feelings of inadequacy brought on by my autism, I get really frustrated and hurt myself.
I realise this is a depressing situation, but it is what it is.
I realise this is a depressing situation, but it is what it is.
I have always had difficulty with my autism, most likely as a result of previous reactions from parents or carers when I was younger, who either said I was not good enough or rejected my diagnosis as an adult. I still struggle with the thoughts a lot to this day.
I have discussed in a vlog before about skin picking but I haven't mentioned hair pulling because I was in a bit of denial.
I feel through the autism community is good online in accepting and promoting praise for the disability.
I feel that if you were to pipe up and say actually sometimes I don't like being autistic, that you might get abuse and people won't like you.
I feel that if you were to pipe up and say actually sometimes I don't like being autistic, that you might get abuse and people won't like you.
I guess I am not yet that strong to always speak out and be honest about how I am feeling.
I think it is something with time and with my confidence in blogging writing it will come out.
Cheers for reading X
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