Impossible

It's impossible,

Impossible to live,

Impassive to hide

Impossible to do anything right.

Lost

I've lost my way,

I'm alone,

Sitting in the dark,

With no words to be found.

who am I

Who am I,

I have lost my identity,

I feel I am replaced,

by a robot,

everything seems to function,

but emotionless.

broken

Get up and go,

but what happens

if there is no go

where do I go,

who can help me

when society is broken.

Reality

Everything is falling apart,

I want to hide, 

But reflections of reality 

Are at every corner I turn. 

Stuck in a thought.

Don't go hating me,

It is just in my mind, 

My thoughts

Want to lie to me,

Destroy me,

One thought at a time.

Unknown to me.

I didn't sign up to this,

There was no contact,

So, how am I supposed to know,

How to perform,

The way you want me to be.

What's Up.

Don't come around here,

knocking on my door,

 like I'm the same person,

 I have no idea where I'm going.

Why is it that I don't have the tools,

To parent the way I am meant to.

People assume I know,

Most of the time,

I am floating,

Going nowhere,

Feeling lost,

Abandoned,

Isolated and scared,

No one ever,

Tells you this is reality,

But guilt reminds me,

Everyday!

Social Anxiety.

Why do I screw it up,

Words are there.

But they don't come out.

Now I am left with doubt,

Paranoia to the max,

Over analysing,

All the things I could say,

But the anxiety cripes me,

Now I am sad,

Because yet again I have messed up.