Showing posts with label Poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Poetry. Show all posts

Tuesday 4 August 2020

Impossible

It's impossible,

Impossible to live,

Impassive to hide


Impossible to do anything right.

Monday 3 August 2020

Lost

I've lost my way,
I'm alone,
Sitting in the dark,
With no words to be found.

Wednesday 22 July 2020

who am I

Who am I,
I have lost my identity,
I feel I am replaced,
by a robot,
everything seems to function,
but emotionless.

Tuesday 5 May 2020

broken

Get up and go,
but what happens
if there is no go
where do I go,
who can help me
when society is broken.

Wednesday 15 April 2020

Reality

Everything is falling apart,


I want to hide, 

But reflections of reality 

Are at every corner I turn. 

Wednesday 22 January 2020

Stuck in a thought.

Don't go hating me,

It is just in my mind, 

My thoughts

Want to lie to me,

Destroy me,

One thought at a time.

Tuesday 10 December 2019

Unknown to me.

I didn't sign up to this,

There was no contact,

So, how am I supposed to know,

How to perform,

The way you want me to be.

Wednesday 13 November 2019

What's Up.

Don't come around here,

knocking on my door,

 like I'm the same person,

 I have no idea where I'm going.

Tuesday 5 November 2019

Why is it that I don't have the tools,

To parent the way I am meant to.

People assume I know,

Most of the time,

I am floating,

Going nowhere,

Feeling lost,

Abandoned,

Isolated and scared,

No one ever,

Tells you this is reality,

But guilt reminds me,

Everyday!

Tuesday 22 October 2019

Social Anxiety.

Why do I screw it up,

Words are there.

But they don't come out.

Now I am left with doubt,

Paranoia to the max,

Over analysing,

All the things I could say,

But the anxiety cripes me,

Now I am sad,

Because yet again I have messed up.

Thursday 3 October 2019

Nothing to you

I see you,
Looking at me,
Not knowing how
To work me out.
Again I end up
Nothing,
insignificant. 
I go back to hating
myself. 
I go lower,
Hating me,
Dreading, 
Feeling sick. 
I am nothing, 
Less value, 
No one wants.

Tuesday 30 July 2019

Enough

Don't feel good enough,

Hate me,

Silent tears,

Watching life go on,

Thoughts go back,

Haunting me,

Killing me,

I hope today will pass.

Monday 29 July 2019

Linger

I'm in a room,
Present,
Then bang I am transported,
Back to the time,
When I was little,
Powerless,
No control,
No voice,
The memories linger on.

Sunday 28 July 2019

Emotions


Saturday 2 March 2019

Slip in the moment


Wednesday 20 February 2019

Twist

I see the light, 
you thought 
you owned me,
turns out
I am smarter than you 
think. 
You forget 
I have a brain,
you try,
twist it around, 
controller, 
not now, 
I have seen the light 
for what you are. 

Tuesday 19 February 2019

I am not worthy

I feel I am not worthy, 

I ask myself how,
I ended up here,
Doing this,
When I am clearly 
I am not enough. 
I am a fake!
I am a fraud!
Hide me,
I am not worthy.

Sunday 17 February 2019

The fear

I hear it,
I feel it,
It's coming
To get me,
The fear,
So real,
Haunting my every move. 
I awake with that 
Familiar feeling,
It creeps up, 
Till I am 
Scared to death. 

Friday 19 October 2018

More harm then good.

There are times when I want to walk out the door, run away and vanish.
I don't have the strength and it hurts is not good enough.
I suck at living and sometimes I don't want to be here.
I want to hide away somewhere dark,
 quiet where no one can reach me.
It feels like an ongoing battle which constantly I need to fight.
It tires me out and I feel so alone and feel like I the only one.
This is my reality I have to live day in day out and it is exhausting.
Sometimes, I just want to die because I cause more harm than good.

Saturday 7 October 2017

Slippy Mess.

Why do I always slip up,
Every step I take,
I gravitate back,
It's hard to get out,
Of this slippery mess,

One day I may overcome.