Friday, 6 May 2022

Autistic adulting sucks!

Hey readers,

I hate people, seriously all they ever seem to do is fake it. Why can't people be honest and just tell the truth because you think it hurts people's feelings. But here is the thing I already know so don't pussy around the subject.

It sucks being autistic, the constant rejection of people, pretending to be nice when really they don't give two monkeys.

Autistic adulting sucks!


I am sick of it and sick of this world that I live in. It doesn't help I am stuck in places where people don't really know where to put me. Let's face facts first impressions count and no one likes the awkwardness of autistic people, it is much easier to just deny us the opportunity. 

Even though we autistic people would so bloody hard, more so than the average person because we have to-it's a fight to fit in when your just totally failing on the outside. I feel lost and I don't belong, this place feels lonely. Sometimes, I just can't face it anymore but once again you have to find the strength to get back up again even though you are plummeting into a dark, dark place.

It sucks to have to undergo interviews when clearly they are not autistic friendly and again I feel like my needs are met.  Don't you understand we autistic people can't cope with question after question without getting burnt out, not to mention the social interaction, it takes all our resources to get through it to then be told that actually, we are not looking for people at the moment? 

Why put me through this hell, what you really mean is you are not a suitable candidate, just be honest, at least I know where I stand. Right now I feel insulted and taken for a full. It took all my energy to get out of my comfort zone and I am devastated. It really does suck because of the effort I put into these things but never get the opportunities, I don't know why I bother.

Even as an adult I am always dealt with the hand of rejection and you know what people it sucks, big time for us autistic people to be treated like this. I am just thankful for my blog as it is an outlet when other times I can not muster the words to anyone about the pain I am battling every day. Rant over!

Cheers for reading x

loopyloulaura

11 comments:

  1. My sister works in a special needs school, where most of the children have autism, so by what she has told me, I understand how difficult it can be #pocolo

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  2. It does sound so difficult for you. I am so sorry the interview didn't go well. x

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  3. I'm so sorry life is tough for you. I had all of this with my son, he couldn't cope with interviews and despite his best efforts he never got anywhere. He has no pressure now but he does have regrets and so do I. I do wish the world was more Autism friendly, yes people are more aware these day, but the acceptance needs to follow and quickly. I hope you don't have to face too much pressure again anytime soon.

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  4. Sorry to hear you have experiencing these difficulties. it sounds like you have few positive experiences around you, which is a shame. Are you able to speak to HR about your autism prior to attending an interview? At my last interview i was asked via an online form if I had any specific needs for my interview.
    Thank you for joining in with #pocolo

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  5. So sorry that you had a rubbish time at your interview lovely. Under the equality act 2010 they should have made reasonable adjustments to make you feel more comfortable through the process.
    Please don't let this deter you in future. You are amazing and it is their loss. x

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  6. It can be very hard to get the 'start' that sets the ball rolling. Is there an organisation that advocates on this? Maybe try them as they might have a placement arm. And then go back and push for the change. We seem to be getting less inclusive and understanding these days. It's sickening, actually #Dreamteam

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  7. Oh no! I'm so sorry to hear you've had a difficult interview. It's not easy at all. I wonder if there are any support groups who would know HR rights in terms of interview conditions. It might be worth finding out, and then asking prior to another interview, so it's a better set up for you. The right position will come along, and one where you are valued as an individual with so much to offer. Thank you for being part of the #DreamTeam x

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  8. I'm sorry that you had such a difficult interview and that the process was so exhausting. I hope that blogging about it helped you feel a little better. I do think it is important to share these things and while it doesn't necessarily help with the struggles now, it does make others more aware of these things and think more about ways in which we can be more inclusive and autism-friendly. #PoCoLo

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  9. Sorry to read that you find it so tough. I'm sure there must be some accessibility arrangements that could be made for interviews? Thanks for linking up with #DreamTeam

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  10. That doesn't sound a great experience for you, or reflect well on the company either. I'd definitely give them some feedback, but also ask the HR department if they're able to make adjustments for your future interviews. I've seen on LinkedIn that some companies are providing the questions at interview in advance to help candidates prepare. Take care and thanks for sharing with #PoCoLo

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