Day 3 #blogtober17 - car

Hey readers,

Today is day 3 of #blogtober and it is all about the car. Now, what can I tell you about a car, well for some they are the centre of the universe and it is all about looking lovely with shiny wheels. Whereas others it is a mode of transport that gets you from A to B.

 I am luckily in the fact that my other half can drive, though I have attempted many times in the past to learn but due to my social anxiety/autism, I breakdown when it comes to the test sadly or not. I seem to get more and more anxious about driving cars. 

I think because there seem to be more drivers about and some right arseholes who clearly are questionable ability to drive or their whole attitude in thinking they own the road. 

I don't like confrontation and it frightens me because of the past experiences and I get scared as let's face it cars are machines that can kill you.

That being said I would say that it has been really beneficial when I have been in really stressful situations and don't have the skills at the time to get home safely, that my husband can come and rescue me instead of me from having a major meltdown at that moment.

Cars do make life easier when there are children involved as it is calmer. It is less stressful (more so when they are young) to get to places and not have to deal with the filthy looks of others while your child is so tired they want the whole world to know about it.

 Not to mention saving your arms from burning with all the heavy shopping, though now it is much easier to use delivery services.

So, I suppose what I am trying to say is that cars have the good and the bad like anything but in the grand scheme of things it really doesn't matter as long as you are healthy and happy.

Cheers for reading X

Slippy Mess.

Why do I always slip up,

Every step I take,

I gravitate back,

It's hard to get out,

Of this slippery mess,

One day I may overcome.

Dates

Hey readers,

My word of the week is:

because I seem to be trying to remember so many dates/ appointments. Then I have to try to remember all these names that my eldest keeps telling me out. no ever tells you when you are pregnant that you have to have a good memory.

My diary is so valuable to be right night if I didn't have that I would've gone crazy.

If the letters for things aren't enough at school it is the constant party invites, jee weez it is none stop-go.

Why is the week so long by but seem to go really fast, I cannot believe we are in October already. I wish people would stop talking about Christmas, I am pooing myself thinking about how I am going to pay for it. I don't need this stress in October.

Hope you have had a good week!

Cheers for reading X

Autumn

Hey readers,

My word of the week is:

because it is now officially autumn and it really does feel like autumn. We even have rain and not just my order in but pour down rain which adds to the autumn feel.

I've been enjoying burning candles, getting cosy, drinking tea and watching crap on TV which literally is a perfect way to indulge on an Autumn evening.

I've also planned on some autumn activities for the boys because I enjoyed them but not too complicated because no one needs that stress do they!

I've also been loving taking photos of leaves falling, it's just so pretty with all the colours around.

Also, be dusting down my knitwear of course because of the temperature or lowering making it super-duper cosy. I love the fact that the air feels colder now I may be odd but I prefer the cold weather.

Cheers for reading X

Cold

Hey readers,

my word of the week is:

COLD

because I have had a right stinker of a cold. As I haven't had one for a while it really knocks you off your feet.

  I suppose it was bound to happen when your child returns to school and all them germs everywhere. It has been so hard to have the energy to do anything other than collapse on the sofa, which is extremely hard when you have two little children that have a lot of energy.

Still, you have to get up don't you because no one cares on you know if you have a cold and you feel rubbish. Early mornings are a killer! But at least it's Friday now and the weekend is here, so I can relax a little bit in between doing the washing and homework.

I've also lost my mojo for writing in my blog which happens now and again. Maybe because I've got no energy and you got to force yourself to do it just to keep it going otherwise you lose sight of wanting to succeed for yourself.

Cheers for reading X

Rountine

Hey readers,

My word of the week is:

ROUTINE

this is because this week has been a proper full week and it is all about slipping into that routine.

Since the eldest has returned to year one he now gets homework,  making sure that is completed is a new thing to tick of my to-do- list. it is always a fight to motivate my boy to initially start the work but once he cracks on with it he is excellent at it.

My eldest went to his first Scouts group this week and he came home super excited. For the first time ever he roasting a marshmallow on fire. It totally blew his mind and he just loves learning through practical stuff rather than sitting down. So, this is right up his street. 

I am hoping this should be really good for him as he is learning loads of different skills rather than going to football.

Cheers for reading X

Blog therapy

Hey readers,

Some days are really crap, you wonder how you are going to get through them especially when it is only 9:30 in the morning.

I am so teary because I have reduced one set of medication. I know it is only a side effect and will be worth the pain in the long run. But right now it is a struggle especially when I am so needed during the summer holiday.

I am not very good when people demand me for long periods of time.  For me being autistic it is mentally draining and a real battle. I need to switch off and sometimes I just need to escape to my bedroom for some peace for five.

I feel a bit suffocated as well as being in a flat and the weather being rubbish. I just haven't got the motivation to anything when I am so tired.

I feel so guilty for feeling tired when I should be on the ball but sometimes I question My ability to parent such as today. I know this is just short-lived and because I am frustrated, that being said I have to battle with these thoughts.

I feel pulled into two ways to right my personal feelings as one side of me thinks I am being silly. The other side feels it is cathartic and may help someone.

It is amazing how powerful words on and just writing down your thoughts can really help even if there is no solution. It is a bit like therapy and that is one of the reasons why I love to blog. 

As in real life, I am rubbish at expressing myself to others. Words seem to get mangled up and I stutter and shut down. Again this is influenced by my autism.

So, that is why I turn to my blog as a place of comfort and release of emotions. I don't feel judged and it is a place where I can freely write without having to worry about all the other social aspects involved when speaking verbally.

Cheers for reading X